It is beautiful here today, sun definitely helps with moods, but so does Jesus. Hey! Son, sun, tomato tomato? Ok that metaphor doesn't work when typed...it just looks like I'm saying the same word twice...wow. I need to stop.
Ok, I realized today that Jesus wants nothing more than to reach down and scrape us out of the pits we fall into. Whether we're pushed there, slip in without realizing it, or go on and jump right in even though we see it for what it is, He doesn't ever leave. And I also realized that not only do we want to get out so we can just be out of the pit, but it gives us a higher vantage point to see what the enemy is actually up to! And of course Satan doesn't want that.
I spent the morning with my Bible study ladies that I've neglected for the past three weeks due to various reasons. And then I went to Subway and Starbucks and started reading the book for our next study. I ended up reading for two hours, I about finished the book. Plus there's more sentences underlined than not now, but I am LOVIN' it. It's by Beth Moore again, did I mention I want to be her? She is seriously someone I esteem to be like in my life. Very real, very energetic, very in love with Jesus. Plus she has fabulous hair.
Sometimes I get self conscious that I talk about Jesus to much...can we say enemy attacking? That stupid liar, I hate him. BUT I did do something to kind of put him in his place today. It was super awkward for me, but I had been feeling really guilty about not being a good example of Christ, not walkin' the walk, especially with this one girl. And she knew I was a Christian so that made it even worse. But today I was like "hey satan! I'm not going to let you hold this over my head anymore!" I felt like I needed to do more to just stop it in it's tracks then simply start acting like a Christian around her, so I felt led...awkward as it was...to apologize to her for being a less than stellar example. A tad bit hard to get the words out but I felt so rejuvenated afterwards! And her response was super gracious and awesome and re-affirming that I wasn't as bad as I made myself feel anyways, so that's always nice to hear. And she asked if she could go to church with me sometime :) Did I mention God is good?
So I'm reaching up with my mud stained face from being in this pit, and I'm letting God drag me out, but I'm not going to be naive, I realize I'm still on the edge, and so every second counts. I need to be constantly aware that at any moment if I take my gaze off of the purpose for being here on Earth I could slip. Or knowing me, I'll get pissed about something and jump back in...no more! No bueno! Could I be so bold as to ask you to pray for me about this when you think of it? So I'm making minute by minute goals to turn back to Jesus and JUMP into His word!! Out with the pit, in with the Word...if I could make that into something catchier I might have another bumper sticker to add to my idea collection.
Taco Tuesday tonight at Pacific Beach with friends! Great way to cap off a "fresh start" day.
And I'm coming home for Easter! Woot Woot!!
Thank you, all of you, for loving me and supporting me through EVERYTHING. May I always be someone you know you can come to for the same source of support and affection.
