Have you ever had that feeling so intense in the gut of your gut that you might very well explode if you don’t have an outlet for whatever it is that you’re feeling? Whether it be passion, pain, frustration, love. That’s how I feel. That’s why I’m writing. I fear my own passion at times; it may very well be the death of me. Not for the fact that I think passion is an actual threat to my human life, but that it might drive me mad.
Stop and think about a moment in your life when you felt the most passionate. Take a second and really think about it. Put yourself back in that place and try and feel it again. Now take that feeling, that moment that you’ve been able to remember feeling like you are going to explode, maybe it’s this very moment, and multiply that until you can’t anymore. The existence of that emotion, the very expanse of it, is only possible to feel because of the King of the world creating us so that we may feel; so that we may live. We would not be able to experience passion like that if it weren’t a mere glimpse of the passion our King has towards us and our purpose.
I believe that it is our right, rather our calling, to feel, and to feel passionately, and to let it out. To cry out to our Creator to tell us how we can further His kingdom through our own experiences, thoughts and emotions. If we let them out in the wrong way, or worse, keep them in altogether, it will kill us, for it will rob us of living fully and passionately this life that God has created us for.
There are multiple things in this life that will try and kill our passion, and will try and take away our sense of purpose. There is our own sin that stands in our way, there is unforeseen tragedy that will blindside us, and there are enticing distractions that this world, rather, our enemy throws at us daily. I do not claim to have the answers to stop all of these things from distracting us, I myself have been distracted and thrown off course by all of them. Rather, I have been freed from the burden of trying to figure out exactly how to live without these things, (sin, tragedy, distraction), and have learned how to hold my head high in the midst of them and boast proudly in what the LORD has done for me no matter what my world looks like at the moment.
Jesus Christ is here, He is alive, and we have the honor of getting to know Him. His word tells us to “hold our heads high above the enemies who surround us” (Psalm 27:6) and shout praises to our God. We are daughters and sons of the King of the universe, and we are recipients of His inheritance for us.
It breaks my heart how often Christians hang their heads in guilt, and feelings of unworthiness. Do we deserve what Christ did for us on the cross? No. But He did it anyways! And that, my friends, is a mighty thing to be celebrating with our lives. Instead of sulking and thinking of ourselves as so unworthy, let’s allow our gratitude to be motivation to stand tall as Christ’s family and live for Him! Don’t allow His sacrifice to be in vain! Allow His passions to flow actively and significantly through us! Let’s look together at His word to see how He truly sees us, as highly valued creations.
In this book my truest desire is to simply try and get my aching passion into a form of words that might actually portray some of what God has been revealing to me about how He has called us to live. He has called us to stand, to shout, and to boast proudly in Him and His deliverance. God’s deepest passion is relationship with you and me, no matter what the cost. That is what He exists for, let’s start existing for Him! I believe the greatest way to do this is to start to feel and live as though we were actually valued, because we actually are.
“But let all who take refuge in you REJOICE; let them sing joyful praises forever. Protect them, so all who love your name may be filled with joy, For you bless the godly, O Lord, surrounding them with your shield of love.” Psalm 5:11-12
