I have a feeling the next couple of weeks are going to be very great. But why can't I have that feeling all the time? God has claimed me as His own, therefore I have Him on my side, therefore...there is nothing to fear. Psalm 27, Psalm 27, Psalm 27...I need to always be reminded.
I get fearful, and frustrated, and bored, and sad, and regretful...on and on and on. And NONE of these things are from the Lord whatsoever. He sees me as Holy and Blameless in His sight...absolutely amazing. I fear my own self, my own flesh, my own desires. I fear my failures at being a good testimony, I fail at this all the time. But! At least I can say that I continue to walk forward in my learning process, and I am one of the biggest examples of the Grace of God that there could ever be! :) So there Satan, stick that in your mouth and chew it.
Through a series of extremely out of the blue circumstances including a karaoke DJ I've only briefly met over the years at one of our fav West Linn hot spots the saloon, (SHOUT OUT WEST LINN SALOON PEEPS! You know who you are;)), I have received an opportunity to serve at a church camp for some underprivileged youth up in Northern California next week. I seriously don't know anyone, and I barely know my new friend Kris who has hooked me up with this (although I feel like I've known you forever buddy and am EXTREMELY excited for your connection!) I found out Kris is a pretty awesome guy who works in social work (which I'm most likely going to be going back to school for in the fall...ahem, possibly in Portland), and loves Jesus...aaand did I mention I just happened to have that time off of work fully paid for because the girl I work for is going to be out of town? I had the time off long before I even found out about this camp...so I'm thinking God has something up His very large sleeve and I'm looking forward to it, even though I'm a bit nervous. But I'm actually not as nervous as I thought I'd be!
On my way north I'm going to be able to meet up with dear friend's Dean and Cindy who will be in Oceanside, and then as I continue up the mighty fine state of Cali I'm going to be spending some MUCH needed time with Kristine Sommer at her new home in the L.A. area. I can't even begin to describe how much I'm going to enjoy catching up over lunch and hanging with her fam...then onto the camp, followed by caravaning back down the mighty fine state of Cali stopping off at...where else? Disneyland!! So stoked.
All in all, God is good, even when I am horribly bad...and I'm overwhelmed by His blessings in my life. SO! I will "hold my head high above my enemies who surround me" Psalm 27:6 and boast in what the Lord has done and continues to do for even the likes of me.
Please be praying for this camp if you think of it; for the students, the staff and leaders...There is so much to look forward too, and so much left to be done. Thank you :)
Please keep me in your prayers as well, for my ability to serve whole heartedly at this camp not holding anything back, and for some big decisions I have coming up regarding where I'm going to be headed and what I'm going to be doing the next few months. Love to you all!
